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Lessons of Lyme Disease, Part III

The following is something I wrote to someone I have come to know as a dear friend and Sister. She contacted me after reading about my journey of healing from Lyme Disease. My hope is that this can be of help to those who suffer from any chronic illness.

I deeply feel for you Sister! Sometimes it’s so impossibly difficult to navigate this Earthly plane…crazy, wild circumstances…and then to have the additional burden of physical challenges/diseases such as with Lyme. Yeah, it seems that life (Spirit?) conspires to bring us to our knees!

And from that place where we are forced to our knees, when our screams/prayers for help is as from every cell of our body, then—at least in my experience—something breaks (or perhaps opens up) on the inside, allowing us to viscerally experience…Grace! …which can be like the thinnest of lifelines that we can hold to through the darkest of nights!

To me Grace is not just a sentimental abstraction. It is a vibration/sensation. The closest way I can express this is in the abstraction of “Sweet Sorrows.” I imagine that you can understand the experience of crying so long and deeply there is a place you touch that can only be described as…sweetness? I think the feeling is connected with nostalgia…and to me nostalgia is connected with the mysterious longing to “return home”…to our spiritual home.

This tenuous state can last for years, as it did in my experience…and that is why I think of it as being an “initiation” into higher vibratory realms. To me it is the most difficult thing to go through, with no guarantee of “passing.” I do not wish to discourage you dear Sister, but to rather convey how very close I think you are to the Divine Mysteries!

It’s not a bad place to be (on your knees), especially when your cry is for the Mother! For me the the very thin “lifeline” of help (of Grace)—over time—morphed into the subtle “Kundalini” current in the spine—and then again showed itself as the Divine Mother! 

Perhaps your cries to the Universe will manifest in different ways, but they will be very personal to you.

I hope this helps sweet Sister! My heart is with you! Your Brother

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Kundalini Divine Nectar, Part III

Any position/posture of the body can be explored to infinite nuance of sensations…and by relaxing and surrendering to the fine vibrations/currents moving through the body, the Divine Dance of micro movements is activated. There is then a noticing of the body moving/dancing, adjusting automatically to the rise and fall of energy.

As the mind/attention focuses upon the current, there is also a noticing of how the mind is drawn inwardly, as though “captured” by the current. It is important to notice and acknowledge the dynamics of what happens when the mind focuses upon subtle sensations, upon the inner current of Life Force.

Another way of thinking about how the mind can be “captured,” is to understand and experience the mind going into trance when using repetition and rhythm…such as when chanting or singing; or when losing oneself in dance.

Ordinarily we don’t pay much attention to what happens when the mind gets drawn into repetitive drumming, or when we surrender ourselves in dance; or when going on long runs. However, if there is an intention to witness the body/mind/psyche going into trance, then the experience of noticing subtle shifts of awareness becomes an open pathway where each subtlety of sensation is like a “breadcrumb” leading to the next subtlety of sensation.

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When Kundalini Awakens, Part II

When going through extremely painful breakdowns in our lives, whether physical, psychological, spiritual (and all the infinite iterations of illness, toxic relationships, financial meltdowns, etc.) it seems that all we can do is…endure. In extreme breakdowns, it can seem that all props (and help) are taken away…we are pushed to the limits!

And during such times, the Kundalini vibration can still be connected with, albeit in a most subtle way. For those who have no such connection or even a rudimentary “belief” in some “Higher Power” (Spirit, God, Angelic help, etc.), an extremely painful breakdown can be devastating on all levels, fracturing the psyches of those who have nothing to “hang onto.”

Even for those of “faith” and for those who have deep connection with Kundalini (with Spirit), there can be a “pulverizing” of body/mind/psyche, and even a “forgetting” of how to call out for help.

To me, this is where “Grace” steps into our energetic field. It becomes the thinnest of lifelines that can be held onto through the darkest of nights…a microscopic thread of sensation felt deep in the spine.

Sometimes I think of this “lifeline” as Grace…an ethereal vibration/sensation that can be felt as a most delicate and subtle “sweetness.”

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Accessing the Unconscious, Part I

In the simple noticing and feeling into the overall sensation of Being, the mind can be understood to be like a machine or computer that can be programmed to move into deep trance states, where fine/subtle vibrations can be accessed.

This focus on subtlety has a way of drawing the mind deeply within. Using certain thoughts, prayers, songs, sounds, rhythm, etc., will put the mind into trance, where it is then fairly easy to observe the mind going on by itself, repeating the prayers over and over in the background of the mind.

In this kind of noticing, the overall sensation of the body/mind/psyche can be felt as “One Resonance of Being.” From this simple “noticing of Being,” there can also be an observing of thoughts percolating up from the unconscious. This is very subtle, as what comes up from the unconscious is, by definition, outside our normal waking consciousness.

How does our unconscious communicate with us? Oftentimes in dreams, through archetypes, through synchronicities, etc. Now, if you want more consistent access to the unconscious during times of meditation or when doing creative work, then the practice of tuning into, feeling into finer and finer nuances of sensations will help.

This can be done during periods of meditation or while at a coffee shop…or even standing in line at the market! At some point in the process of “observing,” there is a noticing of an inner resonance, a kind of background/underground vibration, that subtly moves the body into certain postures…and that ultimately “contorts” the body. This sensation of contortion also has a way of “gripping” the mind, holding the current of Life Force that draws the attention deeply within, upon “One Resonance of Being!”

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Medicine Song, Dance of Life Force in the Body, Part VI

When feeling into the overall sensation of the body, notice the corresponding shifts in awareness, however subtle. For example, when sitting (as in meditation pose), while experiencing the overall vibration/sensation of the body, it is important to also notice the very slight shifts in consciousness as the mind begins to tune into the finer movements of energy deep within the body.

By noticing the very slight shifts in consciousness, as the awareness latches onto finer and finer currents of sensations, it gives a reference point for knowing how to go deeper and deeper into the subtle reverberations of the life force.

This “reference point” of the simple “noticing/acknowledging” of feeling into what is just beneath any sensation (giddiness for example) provides an entry point for the mind to go deeper into subtle vibration. Any sensation, then, can serve as an invitation for the mind to follow and grab hold of the finer and finer threads of vibrations that then lead to deeper and deeper states of meditative trance.

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Medicine Song – Dance of Life Force in the Body, Part III

The sensing of fine and subtle vibrations moving through the the body (and especially the spine) imparts an experience of immense sweetness…like a kind of delicious nectar moving through every cell of the body!

Again, as mentioned previously, there is no difficulty in connecting/feeling into this blissful vibration. In my experience, when first connecting deeply with the subtle vibration, I was amazed at the infinitely thin layer of separation I created through my own resistance to feeling deeply…in not considering the simple invitation to follow the trail of feelings to deeper and finer levels of subtlety.

I was also amazed at how many years (and perhaps lifetimes) I struggled in meditation to connect with what was, ironically, so very close! The “problem” was not in meditation technique or in any lack of trying, but in not truly “getting,” understanding the import of feeling into subtle sensations…which is so very accessible to anyone!

Another important aspect of feeling into subtle sensations is in noticing/acknowledging of the buildup of the energy in the areas where the sensations are tuned into. It seems that wherever the sensations are focused upon, there is an expansion of the energy…creating energetic currents moving through the body/spine.

You might then notice how the body may adjust in “micromovements.” Twisting, coiling, contorting, etc., as a way to manage the higher voltage of life force in the body.

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Dance of Micromovements, Elixir of Bliss Part IV

When feeling into the subtle waves of sensations, going deeper into the overall resonance of feelings, the natural reaction of the body is to adjust to the buildup of energy. By the simple focusing upon sensations in the body, the energy seems to grow/expand, which then requires the body to accommodate the expansion of energies.

The adjustment that happens can be a stretching out of the spine, a shift in posture, yawning, shaking, etc. If there is an intention to keep the body still (as in meditation), the buildup of energy will adjust the body through “micromovements,” very slow adjustments that allows for relaxed posture.

If the attention is not so focused, it can be easy to miss the movement of life force in the body…and either fall asleep or lose oneself in distractions. It really isn’t difficult to focus on the subtlety of sensations…it just requires a willingness and intention to feel into the nuances of vibration, to replace old habits of how we relate to our sense of Being, how we relate to our Life Force.

The important point to get to in this exploration of “Life Force” is when you begin to notice the subtle buildup of energy, when it gets to a certain level. it creates a particular feeling/sensation that, in the beginning might feel like “giddiness.”

Just beneath this “giddiness,” if you allow yourselves to tune into (and follow) what is underneath this feeling, you might find an undercurrent of what I describe as “sweetness,” that has a most delicious and enchanting affect. It puts the body/mind/psyche into what feels like a “swoon.”

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