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How to Make “Oversensitivity” Work for You

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Someone asked recently, “How do you make your sensitivity work for you? When I think/feel into my own sensitivity, the first thing that comes to mind is “oversensitivity,” to my trigger points, to when things catch me “off-guard” so-to-speak.

Like most everyone else (I’m presuming), it is very difficult for me to not react to my emotional triggers. So…how to make my sensitivity work for me when I get triggered becomes an important question.

My initial reaction to emotional triggers in the past would put me into a shell, into moods for hours, if not days. I would feel angry, hurt, get moody/broody, etc.

Here’s what I do now: I do not discount what I feel, or try to push it away, or get philosophical about it…in fact I allow myself an initial inner reaction, like, “#$#L$ M_F!!…for a few minutes…but then I also include “Thank You, thank you, thank you!” even though I don’t feel genuine gratitude at the moment…but I know the gratitude does and will come.

Here’s what I do: I always keep a blank sheet journal with me with a supply of pens and color pencils. I also have my music.

I CREATE, CREATE, CREATE! DANCE, DANCE, DANCE! If need be, CRY, CRY, CRY!
I know that very delicate thoughts, sensations, insights come to me after I purge out the energy of what triggered me! Exquisitely sublime feelings!

That is where Gratitude comes in…and after a large purge, the sensation of Gratitude feels like…LOVE!

I seek to connect with those who, like me, feel they have been “charged” to hold and ground the Bliss Resonance for Mother Earth. Please contact me if you’d like to experience the ecstatic current in the spine. It is a free session that will be of great benefit for you whether we decide to work together or not. Contact me here if you’d like to: Connect With the Bliss Resonance

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Meditation “Practice” Pt 2

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This post is a continuation of my last blog entry. A good friend and reader left insights and comments regarding my last entry that I feel are very important for any spiritual seeker to consider.  The following is from Scott,  (a fellow ex-monk from the same ashram we once lived in) from Skeptics Meditation followed by my response:

Thanks for sharing your thoughts on this topic. Having thought about this myself too, but somewhat differently.

I’d go further than the harms of “mental constructs of meditation”.

How about these unprovable “mental constructs”? Aum or chakras, Third Eyes, or Spinal Currents (kundalini serpents).

Failing to ever know for ourselves whether we really experience these we rely on the gurus, texts, and spiritual traditions which implanted the concepts in our minds in the first place. It’s a perfect recipe (dished up by the teachers) to never trust oneself, one feelings or sensations.

Thanks Scott, for your thoughts and insights. My approach and thinking around the “mental constructs” of Aum, chakras, third eye, etc is this: I have my physical body that is able to feel sensations. I also feel emotions like sadness, joy, anger, etc. I also know that I have what I call the “mind” that wants to make sense of the world. Concepts, such as “Aum” has a very different meaning for me now.

When I sing/tone Aum, I feel for the sensations that go from the back of the throat and ends at the lips. I tone it in a way that vibrates my nasal cavity. This has a particular sensation that feels really good. That “feel good” sensation expands the more I allow myself to feel.

It wasn’t always this way. Chanting Om had no real affect on me, at least not in a deep way. It wasn’t until I started throat singing, gutteral singing that I started to feel in a deeper way. Still, no real big shakes.

One day, for no reason that I can remember, I noticed how sensations had “underlying” sensations, very fine vibrations that I could feel. Not in my imagination, but really feel. This opened the way for me to explore subtle vibrations. In exploring fine vibrations in the body, I also came to feel exquisite “feel good” sensations.

Attributing any special “spiritual” meaning to this visceral experience would just get in the way, as the act of thinking about it seems to cut off the deeply felt “feel good” feelings. I describe this as the “Bliss Resonance.” I use the term “Bliss” because in my experience it is a visceral experience, just as intense as sexual orgasm, just in a different area of the body, higher up in the spine. Ascribing otherworldly, spiritual meaning to the experience is not necessary, but words are required in order to convey the process.

Take the words, “Kundalini serpents” for example. Just words, concepts describing an energetic state of the body/mind…along with a lot of “spiritual connotations” that may or may not be scientifically provable.

For me it would remain just stuff of the imagination, heavy mental baggage if devoid of the somatic feel, the visceral experience of what feels like (to me) a coiling, serpentine movement of vibration/energy in the spine.

Now, to me, there is a very fine and interesting point that can be made here. Inquiring minds might say, “It’s all made up stuff in someone’s imagination! It’s not real. At most, it is just a sensation/vibration/feeling that is exaggerated to be something way more than what it really is. So f***n big deal!” And they would be correct in their assessment. The Kundalini energy is just a vibration, a sensation, a feeling.

Here’s the thing though…and I can only speak from my own experience of the sensation…and that is all anyone really has that can be of real significance: our own experience. From my perspective as an artist, it is as if my palette of paints went from a dozen colors to more than a thousand.

Likewise, it is as if my “palette” of perceived sensations in my body (especially the spine) went from a dozen to over a thousand, with the underlying and significant sensation being that of the Bliss Resonance, an extremely pleasurable and activating vibration that comes with an “Oh my f***n God!” exhortation. In other words, the experience leaves no room for conjecture, “Did I imagine that? Was that real?” Etc. Etc. It is like, if anyone wonders whether or not they had an orgasm or not, they definitely did not! 🙂

Anyway, that’s it for now. Thanks again Scott! Your comments, questions, insights are always welcome here!

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Meditation “Practice”

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I’m familiar—as most people are—with the emotional states of sadness, grief, joy, anger, etc. The wide emotional range of what it means to be human. Take joy for example. If we follow the sensations that move through the body, it seems to trigger a smile response upon our face, which also has a sensation. Now, when tuning into the sensation/vibration of joy in the body, the mind’s attention can easily follow and “attune” to the vibration. It offers a natural way of focusing the mind, relaxing the tight and distracted mind.

The body has the sensitivity to feel deeply and in this sensitivity to vibration, we can learn to use any feeling/sensation to go deeply into the body, to attune the mind—in resonance—with exquisitely fine sensations. What value does this have?

For one thing, it is a natural and simple way of focusing the mind, a way of releasing thought loops of worries and anxieties. Also, when the attention is focused upon sensations in the body, the natural pathway of attention, of mind, seems to be towards finer and more subtle vibration… and it is in this subtlety that the connection to the Bliss Resonance can be established.

I find it interesting that in all my years of meditation “practice,” my attachment (and rigidity) to doing technique “correctly” served as a mental barrier that would ensure my eternal inability to connect with the fine bliss sensations in the spine that the gurus spoke about.

In releasing the mental constructs of meditation and allowing myself to simply feel and follow the inner prompts of sensations, wherever they started (joyful, sad, angry, scary, etc.), I found that all feelings/sensations are connected to a deeply vast resonance that has an ecstatically “feel good” component.

It is a matter of getting past our inner gatekeeper, the thoughts/beliefs/assumptions we have regarding God, spirituality, techniques.

To be continued

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Mindfulness Practice

Something I’ve been noticing about the “practice” of mindfulness. In the past, for the most part, it remained a haphazard, unfocused “practice” that sounded like a good thing to do from a “spiritual” perspective. It therefore had very little impact, depth or benefit in my life. It just wasn’t happening for me, regardless of my intention and hours of “practice.”

However, when connecting with the subtle sensations of feelings, emotions, etc. and especially the delicate bliss resonance in the spine, mindfulness just happens. The experience of the bliss resonance has a way of automatically fine-tuning the attention. It prompts the mind’s focus to go inwardly towards its fine vibration…because it feels so ecstatically good! Very little effort or act of will is required once the nervous system and mind has become acquainted with the subtle sensation…because it feels so good!

The same can be said of my “practice” of meditation technique. Years of practice with no real depth of connection with what the gurus spoke about. In connecting with the delicate and subtle bliss sensation, the “feel good juice,” mojo that can be easily tapped into, then deep meditation happens automatically… and technique falls away, as the bliss vibration guides the energy to move in a certain way through the body, especially the spine.

As I said, it can be easily tapped into. How is it that it can be missed for a lifetime(s)? In the same way that we miss the activating undercurrents of joy just before a smile. In the same way that we miss the delicate overtones of a beautiful voice.

It is not difficult to tap into the Bliss Resonance in the body. It just requires an openness to follow feelings, emotions, sensations (even the ones we’d rather not look at).

For those who wish a deeper dive and connection with the Bliss Resonance, feel free to contact me for a free phone consult. Whether we decide that we are a good fit to work together (or not), you will get much benefit.

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Lessons from the Flu – Part 3

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The body is an infinitely creative, bliss generating machine. It was not meant to be an instrument of torture, although it may seem so when we are sick, injured or out of balance.

I know that when I’m sick or injured, my energy level is compromised and it is difficult to feel upbeat, happy, or of positive mind. During such times it seems the energy is diverted primarily towards healing and going “off-line,” disconnecting from activities that would normally be engaging to us: our creative desires, passions, interests, etc. There is only the desire to rest, sleep, to regain energetic balance. There is also an inner sense or calling to simply endure.

As we move towards balance, our energy level increases. If I’m mindful during this period of coming back “online,” I notice a resuming of feelings of well being, of happiness and creativity.

I notice the increasing energy is like turning the switch back on to the “feel good” juices in the body…a reconnecting with the Bliss Resonance.

Being mindful during the transition from sickness to well-being offers an amazing “Aha!” moment of viscerally connecting with and witnessing the birth of the Bliss Resonance in your consciousness. Once this connection is made, you will always remain connected, even during sickness and imbalance…you will know its most subtle hiding place in the spine, where you can “hear” it sleeping.

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Lessons from the Flu – Part 2

My recent bout with the flu (which I’ve completely recovered from) has been a reminder to me that when the body is unwell, it is very difficult to enjoy things that ordinarily gives great joy and/or pleasure: Listening to my favorite music. Sitting by a beautiful river. Walking in Nature. Nope! Nope! Nope! Doing art, playing music, singing. Nope! Nope! Nope!

As I’ve mentioned before, pain/illness is like a dimmer switch turning down the “feel good” juice in the body…and the natural enjoyment level of what I might consider beautiful, sublime, wonderful, fun, etc. seems to get turned off completely, overpowered by the primal, activating desire to simply be rid of pain.

There seems to be a built-in mechanism or consciousness in the body that moves us towards balance, homeostasis, feelings of wellness. Now, even when the body is well, there is a natural desire to move towards harmonious environments and away from dissonant, distracting ones. For example, it is far easier to enjoy a sense of well being while in a quiet setting (like in the woods), as opposed to being in a place surrounded by leaf blowers, nail guns, jackhammers, etc.

If we tune into, follow the sensations of well being, the “feel good” vibration in the body, it can be felt/experienced as a kind of expanding pressure in the body, like the positive air pressure in a greenhouse. This energy, mojo, prana, bliss, whatever you want to call it, moves with infinite subtlety of vibration through the body and seems to know how to “posture” and move the body as a way to magnify/expand the depths of its creative expression.

Again, when the body is unwell (as with the flu), although the connection with our mojo, the Bliss Resonance in the body is turned down (if not off), a conscious, “Aha!” moment of recognizing it coming back online can be established as the body begins to regain energy.

After illness, when the body has been purged of toxins and has gotten its much needed rest, during that time of energy uptake, the sensitivity to subtle vibrations of the Bliss Resonance as it once again reseats in the body is very high. This allows an opening/opportunity to make deep acquaintance and connection with the serpentine dance of creation!

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Releasing Sadness and Grief

Pain and pleasure, sorrow and bliss, we know all too well in our lives. They sometimes seem to exist side by side…at the same time! We push sadness away while not letting go of the recurring stories of why we are sad. We feel so deeply and yet deaden our senses and blind ourselves to all that is right in front of us: the precious moment! And all the sensations of pain, pleasure, bliss, sadness, joy, etc., are there to inform/prompt us of…next steps…if we would only allow ourselves to feel and listen…deeply!

Feelings in the body, when we allow ourselves to follow the sensations deeply within, have a way of aligning/moving the body in a certain way that helps the sensations (even sadness and grief) to expand to a much wider field of play.

Echoes of Sensations

Echoes of sensations
That play and dance
In my body
Like micro-threads
Of finest rainbow colors
Held, felt in secret pathways
Of spine and brain
Scintillating, moving of themselves
Enlivened by the mind’s attention
Held, embraced, pushed, pulled
Like nectar squeezed
Through pores
And every tissue of the body

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