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Kundalini Dance of Subtlety Part II

Part I of “Kundalini Dance of Subtlety” can be accessed here

Mother Kundalini

Mother Kundalini

I think that it’s kind of ironic that, for me, Kundalini did not activate for me until having dropped my strong attachments to meditation techniques, as well as leaving an ashram that I lived as a monk for 19 years.

For me, releasing the strong “matrix” of spiritual community and “group think” created an inner feeling of “free-fall,” having nothing to stand on, or hold onto…which then offered me intimations of primal and chaotic sensations/energies moving through my body and psyche.

A few years after having left the ashram, I began singing, vocalizing in very unusual ways: throat singing (similar to Mongolian and Tibetan styles). Singing in this way came very quickly and easily for me. The subtleties of vocal overtones helped me to disconnect my thinking and any stories that would normally go round and round in my head (sadness, grief, etc.)

So many layers of density, of sadness and grief have had to be released/purged in the intervening years (since 2001). Kundalini, in the form of the Mother came to me in 2009. I felt/thought that she was extremely shy. She turned to me three times, without saying anything, beckoning me to follow her into my spine. I intuited immediately and felt her as Kundalini.

I’m glad that there is a mental concept/philosophy such as Kundalini. Otherwise, I might think that I was going a little (or maybe a lot) crazy. It gives my mind something to “chew” on in the sense that my mind seems to go ‘round and ‘round if it cannot make sense of something.

Kundalini, to me, is so far out there, wild, crazy, primal, maddening, blissful, that the mind seems to be right on the borderline of sanity and insanity! I now feel quite safe with Her in the sense of having learned to navigate very strange mental/physical/emotional/spiritual landscapes of Being. It still feels though like being in a world where veils are getting thinner and thinner.

With the onset of Kundalini there has also been times of simply ENDURING…during certain times when no amount of meditation, positive thinking, calling for help seems to ease physical/mental/spiritual suffering. Perhaps it does, but my meaning here is that there seems to be times when we get so “ground to dust” that we don’t have the wherewithal or even the memory to call for help, or shore ourselves up.

This is where Grace seems to come through. And this is my belief: that Kundalini comes with Grace. As blissful and ecstatic as Kundalini can be, it seems to also have a way of grounding us to dust, taking away all props, forcing us to our knees so-to-speak. At least that’s been my experience.

When it had been so, so dark, when I had forgotten myself and how to call for help, this is where Grace had stepped in, like the tiniest sliver of light (my lifeline) in a universe of darkness.

Kundalini, it all seems to be one large Cosmic Dance. Beautiful at times, grotesque at times…but a dance all the same, where we are being asked to let Her lead!

I seek to connect with those who, like me, feel they have been “charged” to hold and ground the Bliss Resonance for Mother Earth. Please contact me if you’d like to experience the ecstatic current in the spine. It is a free session that will be of great benefit for you whether we decide to work together or not. Contact me here if you’d like to: Connect With the Bliss Resonance

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Kundalini Dance of Subtlety, Part I

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The “fireworks” of the “Kundalini Awakening” experience, of incredible euphoria, intense kriyas (autonomic/spontaneous body movements), overwhelming sense of the breakdown/dissolution of ego along with all its accompanying pains and fears, etc., seems to—understandably–get more notice and interest in any discussion about Kundalini.

However, I can imagine that many of you may have also experienced the subtleties of Her sublime “dance” in our bodies and psyches…the exquisite micro-movements of the divine current!

The fireworks of Kundalini euphoria are amazing/wonderful when She wishes to dance wildly in our bodies, but I would venture to say that in Her subtlety, Her presence is just as powerful, if not more so…delicious reverberations that draws the awareness deeply within…echoing on and on!

Mind, body, breath, bliss…it all balances delicately as on the tip of a needle! The body then has an innate knowing of how to maintain and expand the current of Kundalini. It feels like liquid light, nectar that can be pushed, pulled, squeezed through the spine, body and limbs.

And of course, the connection can be lost for awhile through the million distractions that vie for our attention through the day. But just as easily as it can be lost, the connection can be resumed again. It is just behind all sensations. It’s just a matter of allowing ourselves to feel and acknowledge Her presence in subtlety!

I seek to connect with those who, like me, feel they have been “charged” to hold and ground the Bliss Resonance for Mother Earth. Please contact me if you’d like to experience the ecstatic current in the spine. It is a free session that will be of great benefit for you whether we decide to work together or not. Contact me here if you’d like to: Connect With the Bliss Resonance

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Nature, Is it Nice?

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Nature in its sheer, raw, primal power doesn’t seem “nice” (at least from our “human” standpoint) and will chew us up and spit us out…if we were to not take care of ourselves and each other…and it could do so anyway, regardless of all the care and planning we might take to survive and be in balance here on Earth.

It seems that in the frequency range of our human consciousness, I know that I like to (and perhaps most of us like to) anthropomorphize Nature, to relate to and give this powerful force human attributes. Thus, Mother Earth, Divine Mother, Heavenly Father, etc..etc.

And Nature/Spirit/God seems to show up for us in the forms that best suits our temperament. At least that is how it has been for me.

Otherwise, it can get too overwhelming when faced with such suffering, of our own or of the collective. To me it sometimes seems that Nature can be painfully impersonal, especially when dealing with intense physical or emotional pain.

In the realm of my own humanity, where I can feel love, bliss, sadness, pain, etc., It gives me great comfort to be able to relate to Nature from my own humanness, regardless of how much suffering can occur in Nature and how “inhuman” and even “cruel” Nature might seem to be.

However, I don’t think Nature is outside the bandwidth of our humanness. We love, hate, feel sadness, bliss…because it is in our “Nature” to do so…and from this perspective Nature can seem to be incredibly personal…and also very much like a great story that gives meaning to our world.

Does our story of Nature help us grow spiritually, or is it cause for contraction?

I seek to connect with those who, like me, feel they have been “charged” to hold and ground the Bliss Resonance for Mother Earth. Please contact me if you’d like to experience the ecstatic current in the spine. It is a free session that will be of great benefit for you whether we decide to work together or not. Contact me here if you’d like to: Connect With the Bliss Resonance

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Third Eye Opening Symptoms

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When entering the visionary state (third eye opening), a very wide range of dimensions/realms become available to our awareness, some that are beatific beyond imagination, along with demonically horrid ones as well.

In the beginning, when entering those realms, we do not necessarily know how to navigate those worlds. Dark, negative entities can be quite intrusive and “in your face” so-to-speak. Our “toolbox” of spiritual techniques that we’ve gathered in our daily, 3d lives, help us to a certain degree when entering the visionary state, but cannot prepare us fully for the actual entry into those realms.

There have been times when I’ve been totally freaked out by the hideous places and beings that intruded into my consciousness. It seems to me that in order to ascend to the higher states of Being/Awareness, one must also pass through a kind of “Dark night of the Soul” realm of utter darkness, horror, etc.

As much as I’ve made intention to go straight to the light/love/higher vibration, it seems that I still had to go through the darker realms…as though it was a kind of “rite of passage.”

Note: Most of the demons/entities do not have so much power. All it takes is to keep the attention at the spiritual eye/light. However, there are certain very powerful demons/entities that seem to have the power to extract our memory of calling for the help of our Higher Self, Angelic Guides, Spirit, etc. This is where Grace comes in.

Our Spirit protectors come to our aid when we have lost ourselves to these very powerful entities. Having the experience of this level of Grace gives us a depth of gratitude for the gifts of love that we have been given in our lives. To experience the dimension of utter darkness and horror…and then to realize the gift and light of love that are embedded in our Beings brings such a depth of gratitude that I don’t think I could have realized/felt in any other way!

Meditation is not the problem! Opening the Spiritual Eye/third eye is not the problem! I do understand though, how one might construe the practice of meditation and the opening of the third eye as the cause of such horrific experiences and visions.

To me, it would be such a sad loss of spiritual opportunity to shut down the spiritual eye out of fear of the darker realms. But again, I do understand why one would want to do so. There is a kind of security in the “bandwidth” of our familiar human dimension. The realms that open up through the spiritual eye are unfamiliar and in the beginning we just do not know of to navigate through the darker realms.

Just a little bit of experience in these unfamiliar dimensions is all that is necessary to move past these unwanted intrusions. Learning seems to happen quickly, to not dally or focus upon the dark.

Again, in the higher realms, the intrusions cease. Spiders, demons, scenes of torture, getting jumped on and tortured, etc….these seem to be last gasp efforts of the satanic forces to keep us from entering the higher realms, which is SOOO close when the spiritual eye is opened.

In the higher realms, the actual Divine Christ Light/Consciousness, the Divine Mother/Father is infinitely and sublimely beyond what we can ever imagine when in the density of our rational, human, egoic consciousness!

I seek to connect with those who, like me, feel they have been “charged” to hold and ground the Bliss Resonance for Mother Earth. Please contact me if you’d like to experience the ecstatic current in the spine. It is a free session that will be of great benefit for you whether we decide to work together or not. Contact me here if you’d like to: Connect With the Bliss Resonance

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Spirit Guides, Animal Totems – Are They Real?

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Spirit guides, Animal Totems, I think they’re all imaginary, but that’s not to say that the objects of the imagination are not “real.” They’re just vibrating at different frequencies, perhaps not within the “bandwidth” that our bodies reside in nor within the range of our normal waking state.

In this way of thinking, all thoughts and objects of our imagination can be thought of as “real” from an energetic perspective. I guess the important consideration is whether or not they have the power and consciousness to uplift and help us…I certainly know from my own experience that certain thoughts have the power to hurt/harm.

For example, if I relive a memory of a past hurt, be it physical or emotional, I can feel the unpleasantness and hurt in my body and emotions as long as I hold onto the memories. It makes sense to not hold onto such memories. However, it’s not so easy to tell myself, “Stop the memories! Stop thinking about what happened years ago!”

Also, perhaps you know how trauma can get so embedded in the body and psyche they seem to assume a life of their own in the body/mind…long after the initial traumatizing event!

Back to the question, “Are Spirit Guides and Animal Totems real?” To me the question is a little “off-mark” because it can get as messy and convoluted as the question, “What is Truth?” …which to me is not as interesting as, “What is true to me…and what is true to you?”Or, in another way, “What is real to me…and what is real to you?

We can bring in the words of science and/or the words of scripture to support or even be the gatekeepers for what we believe to be true and real for us…but I think, for me, it comes down to the question, “Is it real for me?” In the sense of “Does it uplift/help, or hurt/harm?”

Are Spirit Guides and Animal Totems/Spirits real to me? Have they helped me? Yes and yes! But I suppose their “realness” may not be as important so long as I feel guided and protected by their presence in my life.

If there ever comes a time when I no longer feel their help and presence in my life, then I can imagine that their “realness” to me will also fade away.

I seek to connect with those who, like me, feel they have been “charged” to hold and ground the Bliss Resonance for Mother Earth. Please contact me if you’d like to experience the ecstatic current in the spine. It is a free session that will be of great benefit for you whether we decide to work together or not. Contact me here if you’d like to: Connect With the Bliss Resonance

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Music to Activate the Bliss Centers in the Spine

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Do you ever listen to certain songs that you cannot get enough of, playing them over and over again? It is like the body, mind, spirit, emotions, etc. seem to receive a kind of sustenance from them.

I’m remembering a particularly intense time in my life when I played Sarah Brightman’s “Time to Say Goodbye” over and over on my cd player. It was one of those CDs that I just could not get enough of. And it just so happened that, during that time, I was saying goodbye, leaving the monastic community that I had belonged to for 19 years.

One day, months later, it seemed that I had had my fill. I put the CD down and have not played it since. It was as though my body, mind and psyche craved the particular melodies, lyrics and overall resonance of the songs…until I had my fill.

Lately, I’ve been attracted to non-English speaking songs and artists, because the sounds of different languages seem to “tickle” or “activate” different cravings/desires/inspiration/pleasure centers of my mind and brain.

For the last couple of months, I’ve been listening to Sara Tavares, especially her “Ess Amor” and “muna Xeia.” Those songs, for me fall into the category of “so beautiful that they hurt.” I do not understand the meaning of the lyrics, but I like/crave certain sounds and overtones of what she sings.

When I listen to music, I feel for the sounds and resonances that vibrate/activate the pleasurable “feel good” centers in the spine. In this way, certain music has been hugely beneficial in maintaining well-being and for deepening sensitivity to inspiration and the bliss resonance.

I seek to connect with those who, like me, feel they have been “charged” to hold and ground the Bliss Resonance for Mother Earth. Please contact me if you’d like to experience the ecstatic current in the spine. It is a free session that will be of great benefit for you whether we decide to work together or not. Contact me here: bruce@manakastudios.com

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We Are Meant to Dance, Part 4

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For anyone who loves to dance, they usually know what kind of music gets their juices flowing. Their bodies seem to move on their own, in resonance with what they hear and feel!

We are music loving, dance loving creations! When we tune into the fine sensation that is activated inside of us upon listening to our favorite music, a doorway is opened to experience that “Aha! There it is (the ecstatic vibration)!” moment with the Bliss Resonance.

That “Aha!” moment represents a conscious connection with the very fine, microscopic thread of the Bliss sensation that can be pulled and followed to exquisitely deep and luxurious feelings in the body and especially the spine.

In this connection with the Bliss Resonance, the sensation in the body is like the finest silken thread being pulled through the spine. This is the thread that the archetype of “Spider Woman” uses to weave the very fabric of creation! Her needles move at the speed of Now to create all things!

I write these accounts with the hope that—to those of you who have followed this “thread” of “We Are Meant to Dance” thus far, that it may awaken your apprehension of this very fine energetic thread moving through the spine and limbs and that you have the somatic experience of which I speak.

In this experience the body is as a lightning rod so to speak, electrified by the ecstatic current moving through the field of the body. For those who resonate with these words, with the space that I speak from, understand that you are a mere hairbreadth away from that “Aha!” recognition of the sublime Bliss Resonance!

I seek to connect with those who, like me, feel they have been “charged” to hold and ground the Bliss Resonance for Mother Earth. Please contact me if you’d like to experience the ecstatic current in the spine. It is a free session that will be of great benefit for you whether we decide to work together or not.

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