Feeling into subtle sensations is simple enough for anyone to do…and it is a concept that is simple enough to understand. That we can feel any sensation at all offers us a doorway, an opening into realms of breathtaking beauty that we miss only for lack of considering what lies just beneath familiar sensations.
Once this initial resistance (to feeling subtle sensations) is released, it is just a matter of feeling deeper and deeper into what seems to naturally open up. In other words, one release opens up to another, to another, to another…
At a certain point, the experience of the subtle Life Force might be felt as a kind of liquid (nectar) moving through the spine, through the “field” of the body. I think of it as “nectar” because there is a kind of visceral sweetness in its movements through the body.
The buildup of this nectar in the body can create feelings of giddiness that, if ignored, can build up to uncomfortable and even painful areas of stuck energy. Now, the body has different ways of working with this “overflow”: shaking, twitching, flailing, etc. Ultimately, as one learns to relax into this energy, the flow of this nectar becomes like a beautiful dance through the body.
When sensations of giddiness (feeling of “ants-in-the-pants”) reach a certain threshold, the body will automatically start moving in ways to release/channel/balance the buildup of this energy. Similarly, when Kundalini begins to awaken in the spine, the body knows how to move/adjust/release these energies in dance-like movements…if we allow Her to lead.
This requires a deeper kind of listening and feeling into the subtleties of how She wishes to move and posture Herself in the body. If we don’t pay attention to the buildup of Her energy, the “dance” can turn into an uncomfortable and grotesque flailing/shaking expulsion of Her energy that gets stuck in certain areas of the body.
In relationship to Kundalini, the body can be thought of as a conduit of Her Electricity, a distillation of Her Essence…essence of finer and finer energies. In surrendering to Her lead, the body will know how to dance, “squeezing” upward the Divine Nectar, where in the heart the energy is further distilled/churned.
This “dance” with Kundalini creates a very different relationship with our Life Force, with the vibration of all sensations felt as one resonance of Being. When the awareness is drawn inwardly upon subtlety of sensations, it seems there is an automatic expansion/flow of energy…which then creates feelings of giddiness, activating the body to move/adjust in ways that balances out the energies.
The sensations of the inner current, as felt in the spine, holds the mind in delicate trance…focused on the gentle feeling of “upliftment.” This type of meditation is not a passive kind in which the body remains in one position, unmoving. Rather, the buildup of energy in certain areas of the body (particularly in the spine) causes the body to take up certain postures that allows for a greater flow and overflow of the life force.
These movements (oftentimes in fine increments) of the body happen naturally and automatically. The mind’s connection/attunement with these subtle sensations creates a “contortion” of the life force, a buildup of energy that spirals and pulsates up the spine.
It seems that by merely focusing upon the overall sensation of the body, the energy begins to build up to a point that naturally requires the body to adjust, to move in ways that allows greater accommodation of the rising tide of energy. This may look like a contortion of the body, shaking, spiraling movements of the spine, etc.
The body and breath seem to adjust on their own (automatically) allowing the energy to expand and flow without constriction. This can be thought of as “surrendering to the dance.”
This feeling of “upliftment” is a visceral, physical sensation of the life force in the spine…a lifting upwards of the head and spine and even the eyes.
Perhaps some may be able to relate to this: once in awhile there can be a certain giddiness of the body that seems to cause it to move restlessly: tapping of the feet or fingers, fidgeting, inability to sit still, etc…and usually this all happens outside the range of our normal awareness. We don’t pay attention, or consider the subtle dynamics of how energy moves through the body. In other words, we don’t tune into or follow to its source the activating vibration of restlessness.
However, when we allow ourselves to feel into the sensations of giddiness, to focus upon and “hold” to its primal vibration/sensation, a vast and ethereal world of emanations/pulsations opens up to us.
This simple “practice” has a way of dropping the mind into meditative trance…as the mind that engages with subtle sensations is easily absorbed by fine currents which impart sensations very different from the norm.
This play of subtlety then becomes a delicate dance that absorbs the consciousness in finer and finer waves of sensations…and it is this “absorption” of the mind that has a way of shifting the consciousness up and out of what may feel overbearing, dense, dark, constricting (such as sadness, depression, etc.).
Feeling into subtle sensations has a way of uplifting the consciousness very quickly because tuning into subtlety creates a finer resonance of being, one that “uplifts.” This is a visceral experience, as the body begins to vibrate in resonance with the mind that is attuned to the fine currents moving through the spine.
Developing sensitivity and attunement with finer and finer sensations seems to be a natural direction that Kundalini takes in the energetic field of the body when She first awakens. It is not difficult to feel these fine/subtle coiling and spiraling sensations. There seems to only be a small mental hurdle of allowing the mind to focus long enough on the overall sensation/vibration of the body.
This overall sensation might be felt as an underlying “Hum,” very subtle at first. It just takes tuning into it until a feeling of giddiness begins to build up in the body, oftentimes localized in what seems to be the spine.
This feeling of “giddiness,” however slight or subtle, is significant…not to be dismissed. The sensation can be an entry point to a deeper and deeper play of finer, ethereal vibrations.
Giddiness, in relation to Kundalini seems to be a buildup of energy in the spine that, when focused upon guides the body to move and posture itself in ways that allows the energy to flow and overflow to other areas of the body.
This “play” of giddiness can be likened to a dance…a push/pull/play with Life Force flowing through the body that requires a surrendering to the dance…allowing Her to lead!
When Kundalini awakens in the spine, the vibration/sensation of “mirth” is—to me—an unusual frequency of Her “resonance.” What I mean by this is that when Kundalini builds up to a certain threshold in the spine, the body may shake, contort, move in unusual ways…and the mind, as observer/witness of this strange “dance,” is able to watch itself merge with the strong current of what I think of as “mirth.”
To me, mirth is a connecting with a bubbly, high frequency, child-like energy that brings out an aspect of the personality that is like a “crackpot,” or “Divine Fool.” Movements of the body can become very fast, moving automatically, rhythmically with the delicious sensations felt within.
In the context of Kundalini, for me the experience of mirth (and its ensuing exuberance) happens only during certain conditions, usually right before going to bed. I believe the textures of sheets, blankets and the luxurious sensations of “melting” into pillows and blankets has a way of activating the mirth response in the spine.
I also think it interesting that this “activation” right before sleep does not usually impede the process of falling asleep. Rather, it has become a wonderful way to enter the realms of sleep!
When Kundalini begins Her wild dance of dissolution in our lives, She is like the proverbial “bull in the china shop” that indelicately stomps to dust everything in our “neat and tidy” playing field that has grown too small for Her Cosmic Dance! And She doesn’t seem to care if it makes a total mess!
There is an aspect of Kundalini that can be described as “mirthful”…which to me is an unusual offshoot of Bliss. Here is how I would describe “Divine Mirth”: When circumstances test us to our limits, when things get so wild, chaotic, seemingly impossible to navigate, when we are “ground to dust” so-to-speak, there can be a part of us that is still able to “see/get” the “over-the-top” craziness of the Divine Hand at play, to understand the Cosmic Setup that we’ve been placed in.
With this “revelation” there might be a kind of “What the bleepin’ Hell!!!” response within that is not connected with anger, not connected with “Why is this happening to me?” reaction, but rather with a most likely response of “Holy crap! I don’t know sh*t!!!…along with a deep release through laughter…Divine Mirth!