The following is in response to a number of individuals who have shared with me their terrifying (and yet positively transformative) experiences with Kundalini awakening. Although I use the term “Kundalini awakening,” I do not ascribe any particular religious philosophy or practice to the term. It’s just a way for me to label an experience that is deeply mystifying, wild, crazy, primal, terrifying, mind-shattering, ego-dissolving…and yet ultimately sacred and blissful!
When we get “cracked” wide open through Kundalini awakening, our sensitivities to subtle realms become heightened to not only angelically beautiful dimensions, but sometimes also to demonically horrid ones as well.
I see it as a kind of “rite-of-passage,” a teaching device that helps us learn to navigate all realms, the heavenly as well as hellish ones. In my experience, I believe no amount of preparation, spiritual practices, calling on angelic protectors, etc., was able to adequately prepare me for entry into those realms. Of course prayers and preparation can be of great help, but I now believe that the bulk of learning happens only while moving through those dimensions…a “sink-or-swim” proposition!
My learning: GRACE! For me, three days prior to my crown opening experience, it was a period of extreme terror, the very last night being the most scary! Everything that I had “thought” I knew previously about protecting myself spiritually and psychically …and that worked fairly well for me in the past, seemed to be “taken away.” In other words, it was as if I could not access (or even remember) my protectors, guides, prayers, etc.
What got me through the nights came unbidden by me: my animal protector, the lion. I remember growling, snapping, roaring for a very long time! Ultimately, my Guides came through, again all unbidden by me, as at that point I did not have the wherewithal to call for help!
When the crown opened up, the entity attacks ceased. They could not bother me. I stayed there for the next 24 hours or so. I’m still integrating the experience and will continue doing so for perhaps the rest of my life!
Going through suffering, dark night of the soul, etc., seems to be all part of the experience…part of our “initiation.” At least that was what was communicated to me. And I’m not sure there was any guarantee of physical survival…
At some point in the process (as I was being put back together), the “I” in me asked, “Where were you (Mother)? Why did you leave me in such a bad place/state?” The answer came as a torrent/download of Love/Bliss (as well as with these words): “We were all there with you during your suffering, but would not interrupt your initiation. When your tears flowed freely not only for yourself but for the condition of the world, did your suffering stop. Your initiation was complete!”
For those who are going through this “mind-shattering/ego-dissolving” process, Perhaps it might be helpful to think of it as a kind of initiation, one that will ultimately transform/recreate you into the powerful and loving Being that you are in essence!
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