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Lessons of Lyme Disease, Part VI

Perhaps the idea of an intelligent Lyme Disease “Entity” is a bit much to accept…and that’s fine. This is just how Lyme Disease showed up for me and how, ultimately, required a kind of medicine “Spirit” strong enough to “extract” it.

However, no matter how an individual struggling with Chronic Lyme Disease comes to a place of healing, the main point I am endeavoring to impart is that dealing with the complications of Lyme Disease seems to demand a radical shift in how we listen and feel on the inside…learning to tune into vibrations and sensations beyond the “radar” of what we’ve come to view as “normal” and “familiar.”

For me, there was so much about Lyme Disease that was outside the realms of what was “normal” and familiar. Certain aspects of feeling “flu-like” symptoms, arthritic pains, exhaustion, etc., were familiar, but the hearing of voices in my head, strange sensations, hallucinations, seeing into demonic dimensions, etc., were not in the norm of my life experience!

As much as I wanted to believe that Lyme Disease was a bacterial infection that just required a regimen of taking antibiotics (doxycyclene), I realized early on that I was dealing with a “pathogen” that required on my part a radical shift in how I approached disease and healing.

In a way, the “hard shell” of my mind (and all its beliefs and assumptions regarding the world, got “cracked” open to realms and experiences very different from what I had come to consider normal and familiar.

The “cracking” of this hard shell of mind allowed connection with extremely subtle vibrations/sensations, which in turn allowed deeper understanding of “Grace.” And to me, Grace is like a microscopic “thread” or lifeline that is a felt experience, an infinitely thin silken thread that seems to vibrate most subtly (and deliciously) at the innermost center of the spine. It imparts the experience of “Glory.”

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Lessons of Lyme Disease, Part III

The following is something I wrote to someone I have come to know as a dear friend and Sister. She contacted me after reading about my journey of healing from Lyme Disease. My hope is that this can be of help to those who suffer from any chronic illness.

I deeply feel for you Sister! Sometimes it’s so impossibly difficult to navigate this Earthly plane…crazy, wild circumstances…and then to have the additional burden of physical challenges/diseases such as with Lyme. Yeah, it seems that life (Spirit?) conspires to bring us to our knees!

And from that place where we are forced to our knees, when our screams/prayers for help is as from every cell of our body, then—at least in my experience—something breaks (or perhaps opens up) on the inside, allowing us to viscerally experience…Grace! …which can be like the thinnest of lifelines that we can hold to through the darkest of nights!

To me Grace is not just a sentimental abstraction. It is a vibration/sensation. The closest way I can express this is in the abstraction of “Sweet Sorrows.” I imagine that you can understand the experience of crying so long and deeply there is a place you touch that can only be described as…sweetness? I think the feeling is connected with nostalgia…and to me nostalgia is connected with the mysterious longing to “return home”…to our spiritual home.

This tenuous state can last for years, as it did in my experience…and that is why I think of it as being an “initiation” into higher vibratory realms. To me it is the most difficult thing to go through, with no guarantee of “passing.” I do not wish to discourage you dear Sister, but to rather convey how very close I think you are to the Divine Mysteries!

It’s not a bad place to be (on your knees), especially when your cry is for the Mother! For me the the very thin “lifeline” of help (of Grace)—over time—morphed into the subtle “Kundalini” current in the spine—and then again showed itself as the Divine Mother! 

Perhaps your cries to the Universe will manifest in different ways, but they will be very personal to you.

I hope this helps sweet Sister! My heart is with you! Your Brother

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