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Lessons of Lyme Disease, Part III

The following is something I wrote to someone I have come to know as a dear friend and Sister. She contacted me after reading about my journey of healing from Lyme Disease. My hope is that this can be of help to those who suffer from any chronic illness.

I deeply feel for you Sister! Sometimes it’s so impossibly difficult to navigate this Earthly plane…crazy, wild circumstances…and then to have the additional burden of physical challenges/diseases such as with Lyme. Yeah, it seems that life (Spirit?) conspires to bring us to our knees!

And from that place where we are forced to our knees, when our screams/prayers for help is as from every cell of our body, then—at least in my experience—something breaks (or perhaps opens up) on the inside, allowing us to viscerally experience…Grace! …which can be like the thinnest of lifelines that we can hold to through the darkest of nights!

To me Grace is not just a sentimental abstraction. It is a vibration/sensation. The closest way I can express this is in the abstraction of “Sweet Sorrows.” I imagine that you can understand the experience of crying so long and deeply there is a place you touch that can only be described as…sweetness? I think the feeling is connected with nostalgia…and to me nostalgia is connected with the mysterious longing to “return home”…to our spiritual home.

This tenuous state can last for years, as it did in my experience…and that is why I think of it as being an “initiation” into higher vibratory realms. To me it is the most difficult thing to go through, with no guarantee of “passing.” I do not wish to discourage you dear Sister, but to rather convey how very close I think you are to the Divine Mysteries!

It’s not a bad place to be (on your knees), especially when your cry is for the Mother! For me the the very thin “lifeline” of help (of Grace)—over time—morphed into the subtle “Kundalini” current in the spine—and then again showed itself as the Divine Mother! 

Perhaps your cries to the Universe will manifest in different ways, but they will be very personal to you.

I hope this helps sweet Sister! My heart is with you! Your Brother

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Kundalini Dance of Subtlety Part II

Part I of “Kundalini Dance of Subtlety” can be accessed here

Mother Kundalini

Mother Kundalini

I think that it’s kind of ironic that, for me, Kundalini did not activate for me until having dropped my strong attachments to meditation techniques, as well as leaving an ashram that I lived as a monk for 19 years.

For me, releasing the strong “matrix” of spiritual community and “group think” created an inner feeling of “free-fall,” having nothing to stand on, or hold onto…which then offered me intimations of primal and chaotic sensations/energies moving through my body and psyche.

A few years after having left the ashram, I began singing, vocalizing in very unusual ways: throat singing (similar to Mongolian and Tibetan styles). Singing in this way came very quickly and easily for me. The subtleties of vocal overtones helped me to disconnect my thinking and any stories that would normally go round and round in my head (sadness, grief, etc.)

So many layers of density, of sadness and grief have had to be released/purged in the intervening years (since 2001). Kundalini, in the form of the Mother came to me in 2009. I felt/thought that she was extremely shy. She turned to me three times, without saying anything, beckoning me to follow her into my spine. I intuited immediately and felt her as Kundalini.

I’m glad that there is a mental concept/philosophy such as Kundalini. Otherwise, I might think that I was going a little (or maybe a lot) crazy. It gives my mind something to “chew” on in the sense that my mind seems to go ‘round and ‘round if it cannot make sense of something.

Kundalini, to me, is so far out there, wild, crazy, primal, maddening, blissful, that the mind seems to be right on the borderline of sanity and insanity! I now feel quite safe with Her in the sense of having learned to navigate very strange mental/physical/emotional/spiritual landscapes of Being. It still feels though like being in a world where veils are getting thinner and thinner.

With the onset of Kundalini there has also been times of simply ENDURING…during certain times when no amount of meditation, positive thinking, calling for help seems to ease physical/mental/spiritual suffering. Perhaps it does, but my meaning here is that there seems to be times when we get so “ground to dust” that we don’t have the wherewithal or even the memory to call for help, or shore ourselves up.

This is where Grace seems to come through. And this is my belief: that Kundalini comes with Grace. As blissful and ecstatic as Kundalini can be, it seems to also have a way of grounding us to dust, taking away all props, forcing us to our knees so-to-speak. At least that’s been my experience.

When it had been so, so dark, when I had forgotten myself and how to call for help, this is where Grace had stepped in, like the tiniest sliver of light (my lifeline) in a universe of darkness.

Kundalini, it all seems to be one large Cosmic Dance. Beautiful at times, grotesque at times…but a dance all the same, where we are being asked to let Her lead!

I seek to connect with those who, like me, feel they have been “charged” to hold and ground the Bliss Resonance for Mother Earth. Please contact me if you’d like to experience the ecstatic current in the spine. It is a free session that will be of great benefit for you whether we decide to work together or not. Contact me here if you’d like to: Connect With the Bliss Resonance

I will get back to you but please be sure to check your filtered mail as my email may get placed in your junk mailbox.

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Love’s Vibration – Dissolving the Dream

It is getting clearer and clearer that the work that is my joy to do in the world is in using sound, voice and movement as a way to connect with the heart. My part is in allowing Spirit to show up within the circle of sacred space and allow the Mother to do Her work. Dear Higher Self, please advise.

The Mother lives within you. This is getting more and more evident as you continue working with sound and movement.

Dear Mother, it is all You within!

Yes! Feel me moving through your arms and legs, in every breath you take. You are feeling me on a physical level as never before experienced. With each breath you are now feeling my presence, my bliss moving in your lungs. Isn’t it wonderful to be together in such intimacy? I enjoy being in your body, and it has only been through your invitation and openness that I have been able to enter you. We can now forever dance together. Even others in your group are noticing a difference in you as they allow an opening in their own hearts. Isn’t it all so very delicious?

Yes, at times I cannot contain my joy and gratitude! Sometimes it takes all my strength to not dance and sing whilst in a public place. The body wishes at times to express your love through movement and song!

I understand this delightful dilemma. The energy is moving deeper into your cells, allowing your body to be bathed in Love.

Yes, every breath then becomes blissful!

Bliss energy permeates all things and goes both outwardly and inwardly in infinite directions, through movement as well as through utter stillness. You are learning to navigate both worlds while remaining present to the moment. What you may now consider to be disturbances or distractions to this awareness will soon be absorbed by the all-powerful resonance of your growing bliss. Like an ocean, it receives into its depths all storms of desires and dreams. The vibration of Bliss is Love’s power to embrace and transform all desires. Love then feeds upon all things that you once thought to be distractions. Like kindling, they fuel the fires of Bliss.

In this experience there is no circumstance in life that has the power to pull you away from your rightful place in Love. Feelings of helplessness fall away from your memory as Love’s vibration becomes fully enthroned in consciousness. The dream of separation and limitation has ended. All things are a pulsation of Divine Love!

Love is now experienced as a vibration, a resonance that contains all things and fills all things. It is all Bliss. Nothing is outside of it. Desire, joy, pain, all things are food for its Divine Fire!

Why do I sometimes feel separated from the power of Bliss?

Bliss has created a universe to mask itself behind. It only appears frozen to you through your own acceptance of the dream as being the reality. Receive now, that it is all a vast dream, a condensation of bliss energy. It is all a mirage of separation, a sleep you can awaken from when you allow yourself to feel the heaving ocean of the Infinite Bliss that is just behind the feelings of every breath that you take.

Spirit has filtered itself through the body and senses, allowing the consciousness of ego separation to occur. The “you” of ego consciousness is a play of Spirit allowing itself to dream itself trapped in the body, caught behind the limited dimensions of time and space. However, through the increasing vibration of Bliss that is occurring in the world and in the body, a shift is taking place that is letting you experience and understand yourself as Spirit, playing and dancing in realms of form.

The vibration of Love is dissolving the dream of separation. Receive this! Celebrate this!

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