When listening to music, especially the kind that is easy to dance to, it is not difficult to “get” the idea of being “danced by music.” Now, the idea of being “danced by Spirit” is just a progressively deeper dive into the subtleties of sensations and vibrations created by the movement of life force in the body.
What is being offered here is an initial entry point, using music and dance, to access finer and finer sensations/vibrations that move through the body…and especially the spine. This approach requires a simple noticing of sensations/vibrations of the body and then tuning into the underlying subtlety of whatever is felt.
As you listen/feel into the music, notice how the body naturally wants to move and sway in rhythm to its cadence. However, before getting up to dance, feel into the subtle sensations, into the grand central source that activates the desire to dance.
Then, as you tune into subtlety, notice how the mind naturally goes into deep meditative trance as it tracks finer and finer sensations. Noticing the shift in awareness is important as there is an accompanying inner acknowledgment of the difference in consciousness…from outwardly distracted thinking to inwardly focused moments of “no-thought.”
This acknowledgment of the shift in awareness is important because it provides the momentum to go deeper still. In other words, the noticing and acknowledgment of the mind going into trance provides impetus and reminder to go deeper…and deeper…and deeper yet into subtlety.
Developing sensitivity and attunement with finer and finer sensations seems to be a natural direction that Kundalini takes in the energetic field of the body when She first awakens. It is not difficult to feel these fine/subtle coiling and spiraling sensations. There seems to only be a small mental hurdle of allowing the mind to focus long enough on the overall sensation/vibration of the body.
This overall sensation might be felt as an underlying “Hum,” very subtle at first. It just takes tuning into it until a feeling of giddiness begins to build up in the body, oftentimes localized in what seems to be the spine.
This feeling of “giddiness,” however slight or subtle, is significant…not to be dismissed. The sensation can be an entry point to a deeper and deeper play of finer, ethereal vibrations.
Giddiness, in relation to Kundalini seems to be a buildup of energy in the spine that, when focused upon guides the body to move and posture itself in ways that allows the energy to flow and overflow to other areas of the body.
This “play” of giddiness can be likened to a dance…a push/pull/play with Life Force flowing through the body that requires a surrendering to the dance…allowing Her to lead!
The wild dance of Kundalini, when She wishes to move through the body is—in my experience—not something that can (necessarily) be activated or controlled by meditation technique. The expectation that meditation, or any psycho-spiritual process can, in a step-by-step linear fashion, activate Kundalini gets in the way of allowing Her initial awakening in our spine (and rest of the body).
A “tight” mindset around meditation techniques and spirituality in general acts as a binding agent around Kundalini…and so She remains “asleep” in the spinal centers, held captive by the “straight-jacket” of our outward focus and disconnection from primal energies held in the spinal centers.
As mentioned previously, I believe meditation technique, although it cannot necessarily connect us with Kundalini, it can be helpful after we’ve made the connection…when attuning to the exquisitely subtle aspects of Her vibration. But when She wishes to move/dance wildly in the body, technique has no meaning or use…there is only getting out of Her way!
So many layers/dimensions of sensations! “Music of the Spheres” seems to best describe (at least for me) the infinite complexities/subtleties of the Divine Dance in our bodies.
Feel into the flow of the underlying “Hum” of the body, of which the body, Earth, Cosmos seems to percolate up from, expressing as finest rays, like ethereal violin strings vibrating Cosmic music, sometimes beautiful and sometimes wild/chaotic!
When feeling into the subtle overall sensations of the body, the mind is drawn deeply into the central core of what feels like the area of the physical spine…and the awareness of these delicate sensations have a way of moving/expanding the energy/life force…that then creates a kind of “ants in the pants,” giddy feeling pulsing/dancing through the body… contorting, shaking, teeth clenching, etc…all a delicious dance of what is released from the central core of the body!
Tuning into, following the “giddy feeling” that builds up in the body allows the mind to latch onto, focus upon the more subtle waves of sensations that move deeply in the energetic field of the spine. Please note that I use the term “giddy feelings” because that is a feeling that most people can relate to…it is familiar. I also want to convey here that this particular feeling can be an entry-point to connect with the finer and more delicate sensations of what vibrates side-by-side and just underneath the denser and more familiar giddy feeling. Those feelings/sensations are not as familiar…
Medicine Song is the inner vibration of Being, an ecstatic wave of energy felt as the underlying “hum” of the body, the sum total of all sensations felt in the moment as one resonance. ONE RESONANCE!
There is no difficulty in feeling this, but an important component of this experience is in noticing and acknowledging the period of “no-thought,” if even for a fraction of a second…the “moment” when there is only the sensation of Being. This need not be a big “Wow!” experience.
The simple “noticing and acknowledging” of the moment creates a gentle “Ah, there it is!” experience of the subtle vibrations and sensations that we finally “get” were always so very close and within easy reach of our awareness.
So what? Of what benefit is this? Well, this initial “get” creates a kind of opening that leads the awareness to deeper and deeper levels of subtlety, the primal energies as felt in the spine and throughout the body. It allows us to experience a vastly wider range of vibrations, connecting us to the underlying “hum,” the overall resonance of Being.
This fine vibration of Being is delicate, subtle, sweet…ecstatically blissful!
Medicine Song is the pulse and heartbeat of the Life Force dancing through the body…and the mind that surrenders to its rhythm and repetition, learns to follow the lead of a most sensitive and subtly nuanced Cosmic Songwriter!
In tuning into, feeling and listening to the fine sensations in the body (especially the spine), you begin to recognize certain vibrations/frequencies that impart an experience of “sweetness” and that naturally draws the attention deeply within. This is your Medicine Song!
As you feel into the flow of how your Medicine Song moves through the body, you begin to recognize the subtleties of “sweetness” and how the body/mind/psyche easily falls/surrenders in dance to the delicate waves of sensations that move like the finest silken threads of sweetness!
When feeling into the subtle waves of sensations, going deeper into the overall resonance of feelings, the natural reaction of the body is to adjust to the buildup of energy. By the simple focusing upon sensations in the body, the energy seems to grow/expand, which then requires the body to accommodate the expansion of energies.
The adjustment that happens can be a stretching out of the spine, a shift in posture, yawning, shaking, etc. If there is an intention to keep the body still (as in meditation), the buildup of energy will adjust the body through “micromovements,” very slow adjustments that allows for relaxed posture.
If the attention is not so focused, it can be easy to miss the movement of life force in the body…and either fall asleep or lose oneself in distractions. It really isn’t difficult to focus on the subtlety of sensations…it just requires a willingness and intention to feel into the nuances of vibration, to replace old habits of how we relate to our sense of Being, how we relate to our Life Force.
The important point to get to in this exploration of “Life Force” is when you begin to notice the subtle buildup of energy, when it gets to a certain level. it creates a particular feeling/sensation that, in the beginning might feel like “giddiness.”
Just beneath this “giddiness,” if you allow yourselves to tune into (and follow) what is underneath this feeling, you might find an undercurrent of what I describe as “sweetness,” that has a most delicious and enchanting affect. It puts the body/mind/psyche into what feels like a “swoon.”