Tag Archives: life force

Listening to the Intuitive Voice, Part IV

The idea of “losing oneself in dance” is a visceral experience that I believe is understandable and fairly accessible to many people. Similarly, “being danced by Spirit” can be thought of pretty much in the same way, but with some exceptions. The latter idea connects with deeper and more subtle vibrations and sensations…and does not require the physical playing of music to dance to.

Another exception is that when being danced by Spirit, physical movements may be outwardly imperceptible. Rather, it may be more an inner dance of “micromovements,” delicate movements prompted by an inner response and play with the flow of life force in the body…a push/pull play of contraction and relaxation, perhaps reminiscent of isometric and isotonic exercises.

Now, there are many types of subtle energy dynamics happening in the body all at the same time and I wish to speak of only those that can be viscerally experienced/felt, so as to not divert the attention in mere intellectual and philosophical concepts.

Particular sensations that we may not pay much attention to (but worthy of deep exploration) are the incoming and outgoing breaths. When we endeavor to feel deeper and deeper into the subtle sensations that arise when we tune into our breath, at a certain point there is an inner “get,” a visceral experience and connection with the breath as infinitely subtle waves and pulsations of life force.

The above “explanation” can be expressed in another way: “watch/observe the incoming and outgoing breaths dispassionately.” Now, the concepts of watching the breath, as suggested in different meditation techniques, is simple enough to understand. However, the inner “get,” the deep connection and visceral experience of the “distilled essence” of life force through breath seems to require a slight shift in how we “feel” into our bodies.

I find it somewhat mind boggling that, considering all the years (most of my life) that I “practiced” meditation, that a deep connection with the subtle life force (and its Divine Essence, Bliss) remained elusive!

It wasn’t enough to merely understand meditation technique, along with my intention to “go deeper and deeper into subtlety.” All my “trying harder” and longer periods of meditation also did not seem to help.

(To be continued)

Advertisements

Leave a comment

Filed under bliss, Kundalini, mindfulness, Observer, Receiving Spirit, trance

Kundalini Divine Nectar, Part IV

The approach of feeling into the resonance of the overall vibration of the body has a way of naturally and easily drawing the mind to a one-pointed awareness…an awareness of all sensations felt as one resonance of Being!

A delicate balance point is created as the mind that “holds” to the central core of the overall sensation gives rise to a giddiness or wobbliness of the body…a result of the interplay of contraction/relaxation, stillness/movement, incoming/outgoing breath, etc.

I think of it in this way: the experience of the body/mind/psyche that is focused upon the innermost sensation in the spine is like a play of the finest strands of silk moving in delicious spirals through what feels like the central core of the body.

Feeling into this subtle sensation has a way of naturally interiorizing the mind. Body, mind, breath are “held” as though gently electrified in different postures that allows the flow and overflow of energies to move without getting stuck.

These “postures” taken up by the body are not static, “thought out” positions, but rather dynamic geometries of the body guided by the Life Force, oftentimes in incremental micro movements…like a slow-motion dance!

Leave a comment

Filed under Kundalini, mind, mindfulness, Observer, trance

Kundalini Divine Nectar, Part II

Feeling into subtle sensations is simple enough for anyone to do…and it is a concept that is simple enough to understand. That we can feel any sensation at all offers us a doorway, an opening into realms of breathtaking beauty that we miss only for lack of considering what lies just beneath familiar sensations.

Once this initial resistance (to feeling subtle sensations) is released, it is just a matter of feeling deeper and deeper into what seems to naturally open up. In other words, one release opens up to another, to another, to another…

At a certain point, the experience of the subtle Life Force might be felt as a kind of liquid (nectar) moving through the spine, through the “field” of the body. I think of it as “nectar” because there is a kind of visceral sweetness in its movements through the body.

The buildup of this nectar in the body can create feelings of giddiness that, if ignored, can build up to uncomfortable and even painful areas of stuck energy. Now, the body has different ways of working with this “overflow”: shaking, twitching, flailing, etc. Ultimately, as one learns to relax into this energy, the flow of this nectar becomes like a beautiful dance through the body.

Leave a comment

Filed under bliss, Kundalini, mindfulness, Observer, Places beyond the mind, Receiving Spirit

Kundalini Divine Nectar, Part I

When sensations of giddiness (feeling of “ants-in-the-pants”) reach a certain threshold, the body will automatically start moving in ways to release/channel/balance the buildup of this energy. Similarly, when Kundalini begins to awaken in the spine, the body knows how to move/adjust/release these energies in dance-like movements…if we allow Her to lead.

This requires a deeper kind of listening and feeling into the subtleties of how She wishes to move and posture Herself in the body. If we don’t pay attention to the buildup of Her energy, the “dance” can turn into an uncomfortable and grotesque flailing/shaking expulsion of Her energy that gets stuck in certain areas of the body.

In relationship to Kundalini, the body can be thought of as a conduit of Her Electricity, a distillation of Her Essence…essence of finer and finer energies. In surrendering to Her lead, the body will know how to dance, “squeezing” upward the Divine Nectar, where in the heart the energy is further distilled/churned.

This “dance” with Kundalini creates a very different relationship with our Life Force, with the vibration of all sensations felt as one resonance of Being. When the awareness is drawn inwardly upon subtlety of sensations, it seems there is an automatic expansion/flow of energy…which then creates feelings of giddiness, activating the body to move/adjust in ways that balances out the energies.

Leave a comment

Filed under bliss, Kundalini, mindfulness, Observer

When Kundalini Awakens, Part I

The energy of Kundalini, when awakened in the spine and nervous system, has a definite feel, texture and movement, notably different from sensations previously experienced.

When She moves strongly, It is like being gripped or squeezed by a serpentine-like energy that builds to an ecstatic contortion in the spine. When She moves subtly, a very sweet and delicate focus is created…a tuning into what feels like the finest pulsations/waves that scintillate in the central core of the spine. It is like playing with molecules/atoms, gravitational forces…a push/pull/play of energetic currents moving in infinite subtlety!

Now, when Kundalini begins to shift or break things down in our lives that are not in resonance with Her Vibration, circumstances can show up in ways that test us to our limits. It can be argued that Life in general will do the same. Why differentiate between Kundalini initiated “breakdowns” and plain old life circumstances gone wild?

In my experience, Kundalini fosters a deeper connection with our Life Force, with our bodies, minds, psyches…with the subtle energies moving through the spine and rest of the body. This deeper connection seems to create a sensitivity to anything that is not in alignment with the powerful frequencies of Kundalini.

Because Kundalini has a particular vibration and feel in our bodies, anything that is not in resonance with Her seems to get shaken up, broken down, dissolved. This process can go on for a long time, depending on how deeply ensconced the out-of-alignment (toxic) patterns are.

Leave a comment

Filed under bliss, Kundalini, mindfulness, Places beyond the mind

Meditation Techniques: Can They Awaken Kundalini? Part V

When Kundalini awakens in the spinal centers, it does not seem to be an incident that can be “compartmentalized,” kept separate from other areas of our lives. At least in my experience, it has a way of touching/affecting every aspect of life…and sometimes in unexpected and uncomfortable ways.

The experience of the awakening Kundalini has a way of shaking us to our core. Its energy can be disassembling, pulverizing…dissolving our neat and tidy spiritual world view that hitherto served to impart such security.

It seems that when Kundalini begins to move/awaken, there is also a great breaking down, shaking apart of things in our lives that are not in resonance with Her vibration…and Her “frequency” can dredge up all manner of old patterns of thinking/feeling. To unwisely cling onto these patterns is painful.

Kundalini moving through the spine fosters a different relationship with our life force, with our sense of Self. Her energy has a different feel or texture, recognizable more like a kind of nectar-like fluid that has an underlying “sweetness” of sensation.

It seems that the resonance of Kundalini has a way of shifting our relationship with everything, creating/attracting circumstances that tests us to our limits! What might then seem like a series of “bad luck,” chaos, illness, impossible challenges, etc., in retrospect can be seen as a kind of initiation by Kundalini, that is meant for us to release all that is no longer in resonance with Her Vibration.

Leave a comment

Filed under bliss, Kundalini, mindfulness, Receiving Spirit

Meditation Techniques: Can they Awaken Kundalini? Part II

We can think of meditation as being a way of tuning into, falling into resonance with the Life Force, with the Bliss Resonance, the Cosmic Hum of Creation! In my experience, meditation technique does not necessarily lead to this…and here are my thoughts on this: The Life Force, Kundalini, Cosmic Vibration is a dynamic resonance that can sometimes be sublimely subtle…and yet at times insanely wild, chaotic, disassembling.

I believe the expectations and assumptions about meditation technique, with all its prescriptions, proscriptions, prayers, postures, etc., at a certain point gets in the way. The strong attachment to technique and beliefs around what meditation is “supposed” to do has a way of short-circuiting the unimaginably wild dance of Kundalini when activated in the body/mind/psyche.

When Kundalini is actually unleashed, meditation technique can be helpful in managing certain aspects of its “wild dance.” My point is that I don’t believe that (perhaps in most cases) meditation technique can activate the connection with the Cosmic Vibration. At best it preps the body/spine to accommodate the energies…but only after Kundalini is connected with, attuned to.

What gets in the way of connecting with the subtle currents/sensations? I believe almost anyone can feel into subtle sensations. If you feel into any familiar sensation, it is not a big leap to feel just underneath or near the focused-upon sensation.

For example, if you rub the palms of the hands quickly together and then lay them (palms up) on the lap, it is easy to feel the strong tingling in the hands. Now, as you continue to feel into the hands, you can also notice the tingling get softer and less noticeable…more subtle.

Now, the mind can at this point resist with a “So what? Big deal!” This resistance of mind is a huge blockage point in connecting with the subtle sensations…and ultimately with the Bliss Resonance!

This is sad because, for want of going just below the surface of what is familiar, we deprive ourselves of an easy entry-point that ultimately leads to realms of sublime beauty and bliss!

It takes but an initial allowing of ourselves to go just below surface sensations and feel into the more subtle vibrations…and then to continue following/feeling deeper and deeper.

What else gets in the way? Illness, pain and discomfort can easily distract us from connecting with the deeper subtleties…but even so, once you connect with the Bliss Resonance, you will always be able to reconnect. Even through pain and illness, the overall subtle resonance (Hum/Om of Creation), remains as a background Presence/vibration …an activating Presence (or even an intimation) that moves the body to assume optimal positions/postures to accommodate what wants to flow through the field of the body.

Leave a comment

Filed under bliss, Higher Self, Kundalini, mind, mindfulness, Observer, Places beyond the mind, Receiving Spirit