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Listening to the Intuitive Voice, Part VI

[Continued from Part V] Think of it in this way: when first learning to dance, it can be helpful to learn some dance moves, but after the initial “getting familiar” period of learning, it is not satisfying to remain in the superficial levels of technique. Going deeper and deeper into the subtleties of movement and rhythm, technique can be released and one can surrender to the natural power and splendor of how life force wishes to dance in the body.

Similarly, meditation technique is helpful in creating the setting for connecting with the subtleties of the life force, but technique does not necessarily lead to a deeper and deeper release/surrender to the flow of the underlying current.

The inner prompts of life force moving through the body and spinal centers may guide/suggest a very different posture, movement of body and breath, position of eyes, focus of attention, etc. To rigidly adhere to meditation technique during such times can work against the very intention of your meditation practice.

In many instances, I believe the all-important “missing ingredient” of meditation practice is the simple feeling deeper and deeper into the overall sensation of the body, the resonance of all sensations felt as one vibration, one “Hum” of Being.

With this particular approach, the mind maintains a fairly easy focus/concentration…as the very subtlety of the underlying “Hum” of the body and spinal centers have an innately blissful feel…and bliss is very easy to maintain one-pointed attention on!

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Listening to the Intuitive Voice, Part V

When feeling into the overall sensation of the body, tune into the underlying subtlety of vibration. Notice the shift in consciousness (however slight) as the mind continues to follow/connect deeper and deeper with the subtle waves and pulsations of the underlying “Hum” of the body.

Meditation techniques certainly help in creating the “setting” in which the fine underlying sensations/vibrations can be tuned into, but going deeper and deeper into the subtle realms is not something—I believe—meditation technique of itself is capable of doing.

Here is what I believe happens: once a deep connection with the subtle/ethereal vibrations are viscerally connected with, then meditation technique can be very helpful to go even deeper.

The great irony here is that most meditators begin with the assumption that meditation technique will—in a “step-by-step” fashion—connect them with the Divine Realms. In all my years of meditation practice in the ashram, I had many wonderful spiritual experiences, but the connection with the exquisitely fine Bliss Resonance remained elusive. Neither did I see evidence of that connection with the majority of the Monks that I lived with.

Meditation technique, when focused upon and held tightly to in “step-by-step” process, can create a barrier—however slight—that separates the meditator from the very fine nuances of how the Life Force (Spirit) in the body wishes to move/dance.

The practice of meditation technique does not necessarily lead to a wider energetic space within. The inner “resistance” created by strong attachments to beliefs and assumptions regarding meditation and spirituality builds a kind of force field or “wall” of noise that prevents us from hearing/feeling the subtle reverberations that move just below the surface of our familiar state of being.

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Listening to the Intuitive Voice, Part IV

The idea of “losing oneself in dance” is a visceral experience that I believe is understandable and fairly accessible to many people. Similarly, “being danced by Spirit” can be thought of pretty much in the same way, but with some exceptions. The latter idea connects with deeper and more subtle vibrations and sensations…and does not require the physical playing of music to dance to.

Another exception is that when being danced by Spirit, physical movements may be outwardly imperceptible. Rather, it may be more an inner dance of “micromovements,” delicate movements prompted by an inner response and play with the flow of life force in the body…a push/pull play of contraction and relaxation, perhaps reminiscent of isometric and isotonic exercises.

Now, there are many types of subtle energy dynamics happening in the body all at the same time and I wish to speak of only those that can be viscerally experienced/felt, so as to not divert the attention in mere intellectual and philosophical concepts.

Particular sensations that we may not pay much attention to (but worthy of deep exploration) are the incoming and outgoing breaths. When we endeavor to feel deeper and deeper into the subtle sensations that arise when we tune into our breath, at a certain point there is an inner “get,” a visceral experience and connection with the breath as infinitely subtle waves and pulsations of life force.

The above “explanation” can be expressed in another way: “watch/observe the incoming and outgoing breaths dispassionately.” Now, the concepts of watching the breath, as suggested in different meditation techniques, is simple enough to understand. However, the inner “get,” the deep connection and visceral experience of the “distilled essence” of life force through breath seems to require a slight shift in how we “feel” into our bodies.

I find it somewhat mind boggling that, considering all the years (most of my life) that I “practiced” meditation, that a deep connection with the subtle life force (and its Divine Essence, Bliss) remained elusive!

It wasn’t enough to merely understand meditation technique, along with my intention to “go deeper and deeper into subtlety.” All my “trying harder” and longer periods of meditation also did not seem to help.

(To be continued)

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Kundalini Divine Nectar, Part IV

The approach of feeling into the resonance of the overall vibration of the body has a way of naturally and easily drawing the mind to a one-pointed awareness…an awareness of all sensations felt as one resonance of Being!

A delicate balance point is created as the mind that “holds” to the central core of the overall sensation gives rise to a giddiness or wobbliness of the body…a result of the interplay of contraction/relaxation, stillness/movement, incoming/outgoing breath, etc.

I think of it in this way: the experience of the body/mind/psyche that is focused upon the innermost sensation in the spine is like a play of the finest strands of silk moving in delicious spirals through what feels like the central core of the body.

Feeling into this subtle sensation has a way of naturally interiorizing the mind. Body, mind, breath are “held” as though gently electrified in different postures that allows the flow and overflow of energies to move without getting stuck.

These “postures” taken up by the body are not static, “thought out” positions, but rather dynamic geometries of the body guided by the Life Force, oftentimes in incremental micro movements…like a slow-motion dance!

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Kundalini Divine Nectar, Part II

Feeling into subtle sensations is simple enough for anyone to do…and it is a concept that is simple enough to understand. That we can feel any sensation at all offers us a doorway, an opening into realms of breathtaking beauty that we miss only for lack of considering what lies just beneath familiar sensations.

Once this initial resistance (to feeling subtle sensations) is released, it is just a matter of feeling deeper and deeper into what seems to naturally open up. In other words, one release opens up to another, to another, to another…

At a certain point, the experience of the subtle Life Force might be felt as a kind of liquid (nectar) moving through the spine, through the “field” of the body. I think of it as “nectar” because there is a kind of visceral sweetness in its movements through the body.

The buildup of this nectar in the body can create feelings of giddiness that, if ignored, can build up to uncomfortable and even painful areas of stuck energy. Now, the body has different ways of working with this “overflow”: shaking, twitching, flailing, etc. Ultimately, as one learns to relax into this energy, the flow of this nectar becomes like a beautiful dance through the body.

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Kundalini Divine Nectar, Part I

When sensations of giddiness (feeling of “ants-in-the-pants”) reach a certain threshold, the body will automatically start moving in ways to release/channel/balance the buildup of this energy. Similarly, when Kundalini begins to awaken in the spine, the body knows how to move/adjust/release these energies in dance-like movements…if we allow Her to lead.

This requires a deeper kind of listening and feeling into the subtleties of how She wishes to move and posture Herself in the body. If we don’t pay attention to the buildup of Her energy, the “dance” can turn into an uncomfortable and grotesque flailing/shaking expulsion of Her energy that gets stuck in certain areas of the body.

In relationship to Kundalini, the body can be thought of as a conduit of Her Electricity, a distillation of Her Essence…essence of finer and finer energies. In surrendering to Her lead, the body will know how to dance, “squeezing” upward the Divine Nectar, where in the heart the energy is further distilled/churned.

This “dance” with Kundalini creates a very different relationship with our Life Force, with the vibration of all sensations felt as one resonance of Being. When the awareness is drawn inwardly upon subtlety of sensations, it seems there is an automatic expansion/flow of energy…which then creates feelings of giddiness, activating the body to move/adjust in ways that balances out the energies.

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When Kundalini Awakens, Part I

The energy of Kundalini, when awakened in the spine and nervous system, has a definite feel, texture and movement, notably different from sensations previously experienced.

When She moves strongly, It is like being gripped or squeezed by a serpentine-like energy that builds to an ecstatic contortion in the spine. When She moves subtly, a very sweet and delicate focus is created…a tuning into what feels like the finest pulsations/waves that scintillate in the central core of the spine. It is like playing with molecules/atoms, gravitational forces…a push/pull/play of energetic currents moving in infinite subtlety!

Now, when Kundalini begins to shift or break things down in our lives that are not in resonance with Her Vibration, circumstances can show up in ways that test us to our limits. It can be argued that Life in general will do the same. Why differentiate between Kundalini initiated “breakdowns” and plain old life circumstances gone wild?

In my experience, Kundalini fosters a deeper connection with our Life Force, with our bodies, minds, psyches…with the subtle energies moving through the spine and rest of the body. This deeper connection seems to create a sensitivity to anything that is not in alignment with the powerful frequencies of Kundalini.

Because Kundalini has a particular vibration and feel in our bodies, anything that is not in resonance with Her seems to get shaken up, broken down, dissolved. This process can go on for a long time, depending on how deeply ensconced the out-of-alignment (toxic) patterns are.

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